My Christmas wish was answered this year

There are several posts regarding Christmas that I have written.  'Tis the season I suppose.  In one of my posts I had mentioned I wanted to have someone special with me here, Christmas Day, to spend time with him.  That, however, has changed.

My wish, regardless of the actual date, was answered.  And despite the date on a calendar, it was the most wonderful Christmas I have had in a while.  My family was not close to me, which would have topped off the most wonderful experience, but I was able to spend a few wonderful days with that one person I wanted to be with other than family.

I can not even begin to describe how warm, how exciting, and how relaxing my time was while in San Diego.  We spent our time together experiencing moments that shared with him, with his mom and her husband.  We fed giraffes and rhinos. We spent time together while driving, while sharing dinner, and while watching a movie.  To see his face light up in exuberance at these moments creates a smile on my face the whole world is able to see, and wonder about.

Each time I spend time with him, I find myself falling for him more and more.  It is the way he strokes my hair, lightly touches my face, looks at me, shows affection toward me in front of his family that sincerely my heart sing from the mountain tops. It is the way he has the innocent face of a child in experiencing new moments, it is the way he touches my hands, or hugs me that makes my heart melt.  These moments have reawakened senses I have not felt in a very long time.  And while our time together is always shorter than I would like, it is the smallest of moments that help me continue in the desire to be with him more and more.

And it is within these moments that, once over, make me miss him even greater than before.  Once again, I watched him off at the airport.  Fighting back tears, I was left behind the security gates only to wave and blow a kiss his way.  It was not until I was alone again, in my car, driving from the airport, did I allow myself the tears I so desperately wanted to shed while in his presence.  I don't see him as another person; I see him as a gift in my life - something to be treasured, taken care of, and nurtured as often as needed, and on a regular continuous basis.

And, as is my usual way of reflecting on a moment and searching for a method to express this moment outwardly, I found the lyrics below that describe just how I feel at this moment.

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn´t think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can´t explain.
so would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you

I see your picture,
I smell your skin on the empty pillow, next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
but already I´m wasting away.

I know I´ll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care.
and, I miss You.