It is all in the journey

"For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
- Jeremiah 29:11

Every day I wake up to this scripture. It rests as a frame on my dresser, reminding me of what is in store, that my road is filled with hope, and that He is in control. The picture inside the frame is not necessarily important. It is just in there. No, the scripture is what is important.

I need this today. I need this every day. I am so filled with self-doubt about things going on in my life, that I sometimes don't remember to just step back and let the Lord guide. My future is aleady in the works, and it is all to bring me closer to Him, closer to my family, closer to what it is this life has intended for me.

I wrote about "everything will be okay". And this is my biblical message. While humans fail, the Lord is always there. Right now, I feel like I need to have the Lord become a human form and just give me a hug you give a long lost friend. I need to feel that embrace. He offers this to me in forms of my children, my friends; and while I selfishly wish it was "the guy" who broke my heart, that has passed, but the Lord never passes.

Today was not as hard as yesterday. Today was not filled with so much anxiety. Tomorrow may also be better. It is not about the end results, but the journey in getting there, and believing in what the Lord has prepared for me, regardless of the pain along the way. I can say all these things and think I mean it; I can attempt to believe all these things, and think I am doing better. But it isn't until I step back, and let the Lord become my driver that I will actually be able to make my thoughts a reality.

I feel so lost and alone. But, I am never truly alone. I have the One who loves me for who I am, will shoulder all my pain, and will love me in spite of who I am if I just call on His name. And this is where my new journey begins...