It is funny how a song can soothe you when hurting. Right now, for whatever reason, I am in that type of head space where I feel hurt, ignored, alienated, and just not myself...I have no reason for this feeling to be present. There was not a dramatic occurrence today, but none-the-less, a general feeling of melancholy is present. No one has done anything directly to me, or said anything to upset me. It is just that type of feeling, and it stinks.
Maybe it is just the knowledge that where I am is not where I would like to be. Maybe it is that I feel like my calls made are purposely being ignored. Whatever it is, I feel the need to let Gloria Gaynor speak to me.
First come the sounds of a piano playing, sounding vivacious and dramatic...and then the song starts to play...the song that is the anthem for any girl who has been hurt at some point by their significant other...I will survive.
Maybe it is just the knowledge that where I am is not where I would like to be. Maybe it is that I feel like my calls made are purposely being ignored. Whatever it is, I feel the need to let Gloria Gaynor speak to me.
First come the sounds of a piano playing, sounding vivacious and dramatic...and then the song starts to play...the song that is the anthem for any girl who has been hurt at some point by their significant other...I will survive.
It is not just the way this song hits you when you feel ignored, or have broken up with someone, it is the method in which it empowers you at a time you feel less than triumphant or strong..."Go on now, go; walk out the door. Just turn around now, cause you're not welcome anymore..."
For every time some yo-yo has broken my heart, this song has been there...that healing process I need to just know I will be okay...the lyrics not only speak volumes to the aching heart, it also speaks to your senses of what you need to do. That feeling of not knowing how you will continue on with your today, much less what you will do tomorrow is summed up nicely in about 3 minutes. All those emotions of wondering how you will get through suddenly melt away for a few moments...for a few moments you are no longer wallowing in the doubt of who you are, what happened, or why things went the way they went. You are strong again, feeling like the decision (regardless of who made the decision) to move on will be what is needed, and hopefully you are not revisited by the ghost of this boyfriend past.
Hopefully this feeling will pass, and I will be back to normal. Hopefully intuition is nothing more than insecurity. Hopefully I will feel better by this afternoon. But whatever it is, and whatever happens, I will survive, thanks to Ms. Gaynor and her voice...
I will survive
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
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