Change, Change, Change

In the past 6 months, I have endured many changes.

I was involved in a car accident, started a new job, moved to a new place to live, experienced the breakup with my ex-boyfriend, got a new dog, got a new car, started a hopeful beginning to a new relationship, and a few other highlights along the way.

I have not always greeted so much change in the span of so little time. The only time I have ever welcomed so much change was when I knew I was welcoming a new little person into my life as my child. I cannot think of a time where I gladly threw out the red carpet for something called change easily.

The past 6 months, all the change I have been through, has taught me one thing - change is not always to be feared. If you had asked me 6 months ago how I would feel about everything that has happened now, you would have seen me melt into a panic attack. I would have gladly welcomed the new job. That would have gone without hesitation as a good thing. But moving - uh oh! I hate moving. Loss of a relationship - um, you mean I am going to be alone? A new car? How am I going to pay for that one? I am still working on the idea of having a new car with the payments needed.

Of all the changes I have endured the past 6 months, I can honestly say I am very happy with the results. The changes were not always my decision, but through it all I feel so much peace, comfort, and love in my life.

• While the car accident caused me severe back pain, but taught me an important lesson that I am always protected from harm.
• I am happy to have a new job where I am learning to do something different. I was looking and hoping for a new job, but I am enjoying the company I work for.
• In terms of a new place to live - this was not the choice I wanted to make. I feel lucky to have found a place in a quiet neighborhood, a roof over my head.
• The breakup with the boyfriend - I realized I may have been holding onto something that was over longer ago than I care to admit. I learned much from this man, and can say he gave me courage in areas he may not even realize. This courage has allowed me to move on, to see my value in the world, and to find my happiness within myself that can be shared to the world.
• My new dog, Wendy, reminds me everyday to find pleasure in the smallest of items, to love those who take care of me, and never be afraid to show them my love.
• The new car will allow me to get where I need to go. It is never easy to swallow a car payment, but the car will help my children go to school, get me to work, and keep me safely on the road
• Within the new dating experience, I am so excited to see where this will lead. I am with this incredible person who makes me smile just when hearing his name. He is caring, sensitive, and provides so much joy in my life.
• I have realized how important my friends are to me, and the fact that I can lean on people when I am struggling. This is not new territory, but definitely more welcomed than ever before.