All In

The moments we spend attempting to reconcile with our past prevents us from pursuing new dreams, new hopes, new faith.

This is where the actions of today need to be more present than ever before - when attempting to move on. And this is where I am today, at this very moment. You are either all in for the present, or left to decay in the past.

I would hope when others look at my life they see someone who is all in, and for the right reasons. I would hope they see someone who is attempting to do her best every day. I would hope they would see my love shining through. But in the end, does it matter what others may see if you yourself do not also feel and see the same thing? In the end, as I stare myself down in the mirror, it matters more what I see than what the world may see.

This world is not a kind place. Finding your niche in this world may be like finding the proverbial needle in a haystack. But being happy with who you are far outweighs any of life's opinions. When I look back at my life in 5 years, 15 years, 50 years, I want to never regret not saying I love you to my children enough. I want to never regret not telling the man I am in love with that he is great. I want to never regret a temporary misunderstanding separate me from the joy of knowing a friend. I want to collect moments of laughter as a hobby. I want to find things satisfying in my world, and not what the populous considers satisfying. I want to live each day, all in, with nothing left to wonder, nothing left to regret, and nothing left to desire when I breathe my last breath.