Expectations...we all have them. Sometimes our expectations are simply due to what others have told us would come into fruition. Other times our expectations are due to how we are viewing an outcome, and hoping for the best.
By definition, expectation is the following:
The act or state of expecting or looking forward to an event as about to happen.
That which is expected or looked for.
The prospect of the future; grounds upon which something excellent is expected to happen; prospect of anything good to come, esp. of property or rank.
The value of any chance (as the prospect of prize or property) which depends upon some contingent event. Expectations are computed for or against the occurrence of the event.
The leaving of the disease principally to the efforts of nature to effect a cure.
My expectations are generally pretty low. I have learned in the past that people will let me down, and while they may attempt to do as they said they would, it is better to wait and see if it actually happens. I sometimes am my own worst enemy with believing in expectations, and in losing faith in them. I have experienced disappointment in both professional and personal realms.
While my expectations my be typically low, I may look at the world differently than others. I commit myself to situations 100% when knowing what I want. I commit myself to people 100% when believing in them. And it is in this belief, I have expectations they will do the same for me. But, you can not control what someone else can do, will do, feel, believe, or want. And in this, my expectations are dashed. Everything else I may have lower expectations of become used on things I believe will have a better outcome, and higher expectations in the long run.
While I would never admit this to the average person, I am highly suspicious in my expectations. I always fear that my commitment to something or someone will not be good enough, or the right type of attention. My fears increase my expectations, and leave me in a tailspin of sorts. I know this about myself, and try to manage this as best as I can. But, in being human, sometimes fail due to the outcome not matching my expectation. Or, even worse, expecting the worst and having this come to realization.
Right now, I have been praying for something very specific to occur, knowing full well that this is something only the Lord can help and provide a way for. I am placing my expectations into His hands, and attempting to go on faith. Each day, several times a day, I tell the Lord of my desires, and tell the Lord what I want. In telling what I want, I am also giving thanks for what I currently have, never losing sight that I am where I am by His grace, His love, and His support. I am hoping my expectations, my desires, my needs are provided for. I have let others who may be involved in this expectation know of my tailspin as best I can, and continue to carry on day to day, trying to do what I need to do.
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