"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting,by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine on the spotless mind
Each prayer accepted,and each wish resigned."
The world forgetting,by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine on the spotless mind
Each prayer accepted,and each wish resigned."
I suffer from short term memory loss at times. This is self-induced, and not a medical condition of any sort. I started doing this while working for a company in which I did not want to take any problems home with me. It was my own creative method of self-preservation. In hindsight this was helpful. But it became an issue where I honestly would not remember what I ate, what I wore the previous day, etc. And while it is great to not remember every detail, it can sometimes be overbearing in an attempt to maintain anything!
Enter a thought about what I would do if I could either a.) change things, or b.) erase bad memories from my very existence. How would I carry out my day differently. What if I could forget about the past pain I have suffered physically due to operations. Would I still have the outlook or thought I do now about those suffering with long term health issues beyond their control? What if I could forget about the pain of losing someone I loved due to death? Would I still wonder where they may be? Would I have never remembered all the wonderful moments shared due the ignorance of death? And what if I could forget the emotional strife over a failed romance? Would I forget all the instances that made me grow? Would I forget all the amazing feelings of actually falling in deep like, then in love, and how that made me feel?
In life, we are never promised anything. We are not promised success; success must be earned. We are not promised wealth by material items, or happiness from said items. We are not promised health, good looks, charm, grace, or wisdom. While we can all feel somehow sorry for ourselves during trials, who has not suffered health issues, the death of a loved one, or the loss of a love. It is in these moments you are able to define who you are, what strength you may have, and the ability to lean on others when suffering. A spotless mind may be happier for never knowing, but the person who has lived through suffering has an empathy that cannot be exchanged for any small price. And the desire to change something that was hard is the same as wishing it may have never occurred.
It is in the living we are able to grow, and it is in our pain we are able to learn strength, becoming who we need to be for the days we are about to encounter, regardless of how many days we may have left.
Enter a thought about what I would do if I could either a.) change things, or b.) erase bad memories from my very existence. How would I carry out my day differently. What if I could forget about the past pain I have suffered physically due to operations. Would I still have the outlook or thought I do now about those suffering with long term health issues beyond their control? What if I could forget about the pain of losing someone I loved due to death? Would I still wonder where they may be? Would I have never remembered all the wonderful moments shared due the ignorance of death? And what if I could forget the emotional strife over a failed romance? Would I forget all the instances that made me grow? Would I forget all the amazing feelings of actually falling in deep like, then in love, and how that made me feel?
In life, we are never promised anything. We are not promised success; success must be earned. We are not promised wealth by material items, or happiness from said items. We are not promised health, good looks, charm, grace, or wisdom. While we can all feel somehow sorry for ourselves during trials, who has not suffered health issues, the death of a loved one, or the loss of a love. It is in these moments you are able to define who you are, what strength you may have, and the ability to lean on others when suffering. A spotless mind may be happier for never knowing, but the person who has lived through suffering has an empathy that cannot be exchanged for any small price. And the desire to change something that was hard is the same as wishing it may have never occurred.
It is in the living we are able to grow, and it is in our pain we are able to learn strength, becoming who we need to be for the days we are about to encounter, regardless of how many days we may have left.
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